Promises to myself

I have to promise myself not to let what is said to me or about me to bother me. No matter who says it or why. I have to try harder to find a job, a car, & a place to live. I'm at a loss for words most of the time to say how I feel because no one wants to know. I've talked about myself too much as it is. I will try harder to just write everything out. Whether in story form thought form or whatever. I need to get everything out of my head & most importantlyheart. Ive been hurt so much I have no heart. Well actually I have three pieces left & they are reserved for my girls. Edna has such an attitude with me, Loni says she has 2 moms, Lynn still holds tight. Loni always says she wants me to stay with her. I love & miss them soo much. I am numb.