Weight lifted

Part of the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Let me introduce myself I am a mother of 3 beautiful & smart young ladies. I have been accused of neglecting them & possibly of abusing them as well. Because my answers to questions were not liked & I defended someone the accusers believe them. What pisses me off is they aren't the only ones. But of course I have to consider the sources. I really need a place of my own I am surrounded by negativity. I need rainbows not storm clouds. Maybe I'm to defensive with some people but it's normal for me to feel that way I'm not sure how to change that. I'm an old lady & boy do I feel it.
But I am going to see my girls & take them where ever I want. Although for a while I guess group is not an option. I wish this nightmare would end soon & the whole truth would come out. This is hurting so many people. I feel bad that all of this had happened. So many things run thru my mind about it all. But I know in my heart it didn't happen the way the accusers think it did.
God will bring it all to light in His own time. But I'm getting impatient. my girls miss their family & friends...

My Prayers

I started writing out my prayers but I can't find my journal so I will write them here. No names but He knows who Im praying for. He knows my heart & soul even it feels empty.
Dear Lord, I have so many loved ones to pray for I'm not sure where to start. A definite start is with my girls. They are going through so much right now. I pray you watch over them & help them through this. Help them to know the truth about the situation when the time is right for them. Lord I pray they never forget how much I love them or want them to live with me. I pray the truth comes out Lord. I was not the perfect wife or mother but it is not all my fault. Lord I pray you look over my family & friends, each has their own struggles to endure yet they try to stand by me. I pray you will touch all of them & show them the true angels on earth they have been to me. I pray for everyone in the hospitals or at home that are sick around the world, near & far. I pray you lay your hand on them & heal them or take them home so they may stop suffering. Lord I pray you watch over those who have stood against me mend their hearts. I pray for everyone I know, Lord.
Look into my heart & soul Lord everything & everyone is there.
Lord I pray you help me through my struggles, guide me with Your strength. Help me think more positively everyday. Most of all Lord I pray for your forgiveness. I am not perfect, Lord. I give it all up to you Lord. I feel lost & alone though I know you are there Lord. Please take the pain away, Lord I'm not sure how much more I can take. It hurts to breathe, to think, to be me.

Clearing the mind

I can't believe it's August first today. Where the hell has the year gone? It's all a blur. My two youngest daughters start preschool tomorrow. I still have a job that is scheduled one day a week. I'm driving the truck which takes a lot of gas & I have to ask for it most of the time. Since my checks are so little I can barely afford gas. Uggh I also need a checking account but I cant do that. This just plain sucks. Where the hell is my fairy godmother when I need her? LOL! I don't know where to go from here. I'm getting frustrated with everything. To top it all off Im getting bitched at for running around too much.I dropped off my couch & hello the gear shift broke off or I would not have come back to Pittsburg so much. No matter what I say makes a difference. Help Calgon take me far far away.