New Year New Chapter in Life

Wow I can't believe Christmas in in 4 days. Four days, That is unbelievable. Where did this year go, it's all a blur for me. But amid all the hustle & bustle when I look at my girls I see excitement. It's not excitement for the presents they will get. My girls are actually excited because they get to see their grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins. My girls are actually more excited to see family & friends than the presents. While driving to church one Sunday my 6 year old was singing Christmas carols, when I asked her why we celebrate Christmas she said without hesitation, "To celebrate the birth of Jesus." I thought Score I'm doing something right. Then I asked why we celebrate Easter, she said to celebrate the birth of Jesus. I explained to her we celebrate Jesus being risen again. "Oh ok that's right i had it a little backwards," she answers.
Why I wonder does it take the innocence of a child to remind us of the reason of this season?

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE.

A New Journey Begins

I will be starting a new journey in my life soon. As this year comes to a close I am baffled by all the changes in the world & in my own life. After the first of the year I will be filing for divorce from a man who I thought would love me forever. When we met he cooked for me, he treated me like I was special to him & the only one in the world. He was very kind & caring. He is no longer that man & blames me for alot of our problems. I was not allowed to go anywhere b/c I was home with the kids. I no longer worked he says he knew our finances would go down but we never discussed anything like we should have.

I have 3 beautifuil girls ages 6, 3, & 2 yrs old. I now have to get a job & worry about supporting them on my own. He has gone on & ignores the situation. Now he wants to be included & acts like I am in the wronmg for being upset about anything at all. I am so lost I don't know what to do anymore. But I must keep going for my kids. They are the only thing that matters in my wold now.

Why

Billy Currington has a song called, "Why, Why, Why". In this song it talks of a guy who keeps asking his girlfriend why all of a sudden the way he looks is not good enough. She keeps trying to change him into something he's not. They say the clothes make the man. Why is that? If I'm wearing a burlap sack & you think I'm beautiful anyway. Yes we get different clothes, but does that make me any less beautiful than before? I mean come on. Seriously when you love someone it should be for who they are & it should not change. I am the same person as I was I don't know 5 or 6 years ago. I don't dress any differently than I did then. But I'm not good enough anymore because I'm not dressed the way someone else feels I should. Something is wrong with that picture. Very Wrong!! I dress comfortable, if I'm not comfortable it does show. I am not a model, I doubt I ever will be. I don't look rail thin, & I'm not pretty. So where does that leave me? I guess I will find out when other drama ends.